Lullaby for a Stormy Night

My son always reminds me of this song. Rainy days always draw him near me because he is afraid of the loud pitter-pattering of the rain on the roof as well as the thunder.

Sing with me.

Lullaby for a Stormy Night
by Vienna Teng

Little child, be not afraid
The rain pounds harsh against the glass
Like an unwanted stranger
There is no danger
I am here tonight

Little child
Be not afraid
Though thunder explodes
And lightning flash
Illuminates your tearstained face
I am here tonight

And someday you’ll know
That nature is so
This same rain that draws you near me
Falls on rivers and land
And forests and sand
Makes the beautiful world that you see
In the morning

Little child
Be not afraid
The storm clouds mask your beloved moon
And its candlelight beams
Still keep pleasant dreams
I am here tonight

Little child
Be not afraid
The wind makes creatures of our trees
And the branches to hands
They’re not real, understand
And I am here tonight

And someday you’ll know
That nature is so
This same rain that draws you near me
Falls on rivers and land
And forest and sand
Makes the beautiful world that you see
In the morning

For you know, once even I
Was a little child
And I was afraid
But a gentle someone always came
To dry all my tears
Trade sweet sleep the fears
And to give a kiss goodnight

Well, now I am grown
And these years have shown
Rain’s a part of how life goes
But it’s dark and it’s late
So I’ll hold you and wait
’til your frightened eyes do close

And I hope that you’ll know
That nature is so
This same rain that draws you near me
Falls on rivers and land
And forests and sand
Makes the beautiful world that you see
In the morning

Everything’s fine in the morning
The rain will be gone in the morning
But I’ll still be here in the morning

Quality Time vs. Work

I have been blissful for the past months due to the number of offers I got from employers from the outside. I got them all and have been working for them for months, some for almost a month now. I am happy coz I am earning big, but I know I can’t have too many masters all at the same time. I still have to choose among them of whom shall I give up. And now, I have come to the edge of my decision making.

I need to give up one of my clients coz if I won’t, I will not be able to spend time with my kid anymore – now that a new client is coming but has the biggest offer among all my other clients. My basis for eliminating one of them are these:

a) the kind of work I do for them
b) the pay
c) the bond I have with them
d) if I foresee a good future with them (no conflicts, etc)
e) my work is not interrupted by other people.

The last category is what matters to me the most. I am an independent worker. I know I haven’t worked with a team before and maybe that is why I am a little uncomfortable if someone monitors me even if he/she is just a teammate. I know I am responsible because at the end of the day, I never fail to send updates of my tasks. So what’s the point of monitoring me all the time when I know my tasks already and I know I have already performed them all? That just annoys me.

Well, I am serving 4 clients now – including my client from the company I am currently working. Soon that I will be working home based, I need to give up one of them because if I won’t, the quality time I should spend for my kid and hubby would be deleted from my daily time schedule. Who would want to continue a life loaded with works and having no leisure at all? I need to sacrifice one client – rather than sacrifice my being a wife and a mother which I believe would eventually make me regret in the future..

Everything for him.

I have been a mother for one year and eight months now, and so far I don’t have complains.

I love being a mom to Jasper. I love cuddling him each night before he goes to sleep or even during the day when I arrive from work.

I love to play with him even if he is annoying sometimes (I know most children or boys are)

I love to talk to him of things he wants to talk about.

I love to give him all that he needs even if it means burning out my body because of work.

I love to see him smile at me and hug me close when he wants to cuddle.

I love the way he kisses me and I love to kiss him as well

I love his sweet little voice, calling me mama and waking me up each day when I need to get up.

I love the way he calls me whenever he asks for help.

I love everything in him and the way we show love to each other.

I know he loves me and I hope he knows I love him more..

I am a busy mom now..

I am trying to give what’s best for my son even if it means sacrificing my sleep or more likely, my health.

I will strive harder for his future.

I will do everything which I think I can to give him the best of the best.

That’s how much I love my son, and no one — and I mean NO ONE, could ever take him away from me even if it means I have to sacrifice everything just for him.

.. i guess that’s what mothers really do.